Wednesday, December 23, 2009

I'm a hopeless romantic.
I don't care if i'm old fashioned, or not "with it" in terms of the random hook ups or no strings attached romance that most teens seem to engage in.
I want feelings, i want emotions, i want meaning.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

You were always a priority. Was I only ever an option?

Monday, December 21, 2009

My current playlist is as follows. Some have remained in this "atm" playlist for a month or so now, while some are newbies. But I have been listening to this playlist heaps lately, so felt like sharing.
In no particular order:

Panic switch - Silversun pickups
Hell - tegan & sara
Heartbreak scorsese - snob scrilla
Empire state of mind - jay-z
Thunder (acoustic) - boys like girls
Fader - the temper trap
Teleport a & b - the spill canvas
Free fallin' - john mayer
To build a home - the cinematic orchestra
Stay with me - the sundance kids
Assurance closure - artist vs poet
Enough to let me go - switchfoot
She drives me crazy - fine young cannibals
So in love - the icarus account *fav of the day
Time after time - quietdrive
Homecoming - kanye west
No ones gonna love you - band of horses
I'm in miami bitch - LMFAO
Substitution - Silversun pickups
On top of the world - boys like girls

Monday, December 14, 2009

something always manages to be complicated.
Just when you think you've got it all figured out, everything under control, another slap to the face occurs. carrying with it all the reminders that make you stumble backwards and fall to the ground.
And do the other parties even share in common a tenth of the feeling and emotion that you experience? Or is it nothing to them...

Sunday, December 13, 2009

I like how Mel and Josh beep every time they drive past my house, whether i'm home or not.
I like when people don't let me down and don't leave me feeling foolishly disappointed.
I like expanding my music collection.
I like hanging out with people that i can have comfortable silences with.
I like how the spare toothbrush at Jack's house has become my toothbrush.
I like becoming close to people and making new friends.
I like my phone and when people text me.
I think i like the internet too much.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

I knew it was going to be a restless night of sleep last night after i couldn't get comfortable straight away. Tossing and turning for more than double the amount of time that it usually takes to fall asleep.
Waking at 4:30am just to check the time and then force myself back to sleep. And then again at 7:40am.
And then being woken from a bad dream by my alarm, which left me with this weird, unsettled feeling in my stomach.
Stumbling blindly into the shower, feeling so tired that i end up wasting 5-10 minutes just sitting down. And lastly, leaving the shower 20 minutes later, yawning and battling to pry open my eyelids so that i can dress myself, only to put my shirt on backwards.
Good morning friday.
waiting.
for a person, for an event, for a time...
it seems as though that is all we ever do.